I'm such a hypocrite that I really annoy the hell out of myself. At least that's what I think I am ... maybe I've got the wrong word.
In my everyday life I try hard to be a nice person (sometimes it just doesn't work out though!). I'm honest and I can't seem to ever find the words that help to smooth out what it is I'm saying and it comes across as being nasty. That's just one of my faults but I believe that anyone who really knows me knows that I don't mean it as harsh as it sounds.
Okay, well enough about that fault ... let's move onto the next fault.
As I said I try to be nice in my everyday life and pay compliments or give words of encouragement whenever I can. When I do this, again, as anyone who knows me knows that I mean it and I'm not just saying it.
So, this is where I'm a hypocrite (or whatever word is the correct word).
I tell you I like something you did. I tell you you're a great person. I tell you that you're wonderfully talented. I tell you I like your top. I tell you I like your hairstyle. I tell you I admire you. Yadda Yadda Yadda. The bottom line is I'm honest, sincere and really mean it. Afterall I don't have to say anything at all.
So, why is it when someone pays me a compliment I'm looking for the Bazinga that's about to smack me across the face? I don't believe them - I think they're just saying it to be nice and not hurt my feelings.
Why can I not just accept the compliment and believe that they're saying it to me in the same gesture that I give my compliments?
Why, as soon as someone gives me a compliment do I feel the need to start analyzing it?
Does anyone else ever do this or am I just more so of a freak than I thought?
It's been a while since I've written and I'm thinking I need to get my ass outta its rut and move on.
Stay tuned for more posts as we review the idiosyncrasies of Jeannie. Hmmm, look at that word "idiosyncrasies". Seems I'm an idiot who's crazy. Funny.